Many people spend most of their lives running from their past. Okay I’ll admit it, I was guilty of this as well. That is until I decided to just do it, to sit alone and reflect on my past mistakes and hard times. This all came about when a good friend asked about my blog. Of course I gave her the typical excuse, “I have been so extremely busy.” Although my excuse was valid, it made me think. I love blogging and should make more time for it, but what do I have to talk about?
Que the “blast from the past” music please!
So last time we talked I went on and on about losing my job, and I want to thank you for all of your support and encouraging words! Fast forward a few months and after all of the prayers, doubts, and of course stay at home business ideas, God finally answered my prayers. No it wasn’t necessarily the job I thought I wanted, but it came right on time.
Now fast forward a few more months….everything is falling into place and I have everything under control, until I didn’t. All of a sudden my brain went missing. I would lose my keys or cell phone at least three times a week. If my head wasn’t connected to my neck I would have lost it too, but I really knew something was wrong when I left my son’s entire diaper bag at a house warming party. THE WHOLE BAG, diapers, wipes, and milk included. I went into panic mode. I must be losing my mind. That’s when I realized I was late…..”I can’t be.”
One week before my second anniversary and one month before Baby B’s birthday, we received a quick curve ball. Yep, we’re pregnant! My first thought was, “ummmm what, I thought we were careful, and can we handle another baby right now?” I wanted to be excited but I have to be honest, fear really took over. A new baby just wasn’t in our plans, or our budget. It seemed that as soon as I had a life plan that was actually working, God picked up the pretty little snow globe I’m living in and gave it a nice shake. The what ifs starting rolling in and the view of my future became a little blurry. Then I remembered my last post, Do You Trust Him, and my past in general. Of course I’m not exactly where I would like to be, but man have I come a long way!
A quick glance at your past will truly make you appreciate your present and should make very hopeful for your future. Unfortunately I can’t predict the future, but I do believe that faith and perception will provide the promise of a bright future. As Marianne Williamson stated in A Return To Love, Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles (which I highly recommend to add to your reading list), “A shift in how we think about life produces a shift in how we experience it. To say, “God, deliver me from hell,” means “God, deliver me from my fearful thinking.”” It’s time to stop living in fear and accept each challenge we face knowing there is a victory on the other side.